I missed work and going back was a relief. Identity isn't only motherhood and that's ok.

First week tough. Then he loved nursery and I loved work and life balanced out.

Don't borrow guilt from people projecting their feelings on you. You'll feel what you feel.

I literally skipped to work the first day. Then felt guilty for not crying. Then realised that was silly.

He'll be FINE. You'll be FINE. Modern motherhood does not require martyrdom.